I always feel empty inside. I am a single mother of 4 beautiful healthy children. My life is like swimming as fast as I can to keep my head above water but my kids are my greatest joy and I am proud of the job I have done. Yet, I feel like I have a big hole inside that needs to be filled up. I search and search for things to fill that hole like: food, things to make my house smell good, reading material, shopping and sex, but these things are only fleeting gratifications. Sex is good in the moment but later I feel empty again. It's like a battery that never gets fully charged. I did have a boyfriend that died 4 years ago who left a hole in my heart but that was a long time ago. I've had religion and don't think that is exactly what I need. Some of my family doesn't approve of me, but my motto is: To thine own self be true. I don't really have friends, (maybe because I am so independant) I have coworkers and swinging friends but are they really true friends? I'm not looking for pitty just asking, "Does anyone else feel this way?"
I think we all feel this way on ocasion. Those who have had more to stress about probably have a deeper hole. I find that if i dont stay busy the hole just gets deeper, not that keeping busy fixes the issue! I look back at the friends I have had in my past and there are very few that are true good friends. Its not that the they dont want to be, its just that they have lives and worries of their own. It seems odd my best friend is 46 and i am 27. I am a scuba instructor and he works for me on ocasion. Our friendship is based upon a passion we both share, and it helps that our wives let us out! "LOL" The hole seems to shallow when you are around people that dont mind if you are independent or that you have faults. Just a while ago we found out we are having twins and right in the middle i decided to change jobs. My hole was so great that i couldnt see any light at the top. My best friend said to me: do you know what the secret of life is? I came up with every bullshit answer i could but they were all wrong. The answer is never stop moving! It is that simple! When your depressed if you stay stationary it just gets worse. If you retire and stop being active you die within2-3 years. So when you feel like the world is closing in and there aren't any answers go for a walk, call a friend, and remember to live... Well i probably haven't helped but this is what i do. I think you can look for answers all day but in the end you need to find passions and friends to share them with.
Take care and remember "to each their own doesnt mean you have to do anything alone!!!!"
Take care and remember "to each their own doesnt mean you have to do anything alone!!!!"
I agree with most everything NEW2 said. However, with four kids and an active swinging lifestyle, I doubt that staying in motion is much of a problem for you.
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I can`t say I always feel empty inside but there are times where I do feel that way. In 1998, I laid my first wife to rest and was left to finish raising my two stepchildren alone without their mother. I have since remarried to an incredible woman who knows I can only give her of my heart, what has not been laid to rest with my first wife. My first wife was much older then myself, and completely opposite of Lori, my current wife who is 7 years younger then me. My family and friends could not understand why I went opposite ends of the spectrum with women. Family knows I am independant and that might be why they keep a distance between us.
True friends are just that, lifestyle or not. We have made some true friends in the lifestyle and know we are very fortunite to have done so. I do agree with others that posted saying you must first fill the void you feel. In my case, the void will never be filled completely but it is very manageable now. I am so lucky to have found a partner that understands me so well. While we can not fix your problem, we do hope knowing you are not alone offers some sort of comfort to you.
True friends are just that, lifestyle or not. We have made some true friends in the lifestyle and know we are very fortunite to have done so. I do agree with others that posted saying you must first fill the void you feel. In my case, the void will never be filled completely but it is very manageable now. I am so lucky to have found a partner that understands me so well. While we can not fix your problem, we do hope knowing you are not alone offers some sort of comfort to you.
We can completely relate to what you are saying , In our case it is that we moved to Florida in July of this year and we left behind family and some awesome friends in Utah (majesticwolf) just to name one . It has really been lonely if I and my husband did not have each other it would suck far more than it does, But we have relized this and are going back to all that we love in Utah ... Snow is not one of them but that is the least . It is not worth staying here and missing all that we are missing ....... We just wish it was sooner than it is going to be. So if you are looking for more friends we will be there no latter than sumnmer and we would love to get to know another possible new friend . Best of luck DandJ
We had to bring this one back up. We want to make sure anyone else feeling the same, or suffering from the same type of loss knows there is always hope. Wednesday, the 19th I celebrate our 8th anniversary with my second wife.
I think it took a tremendous amount of courage to post this topic. I hope she does not mind my telling, but we have exchanged a few e-mails with shareware and think any friends she has there in Utah are very lucky to have her as a friend. What a kind and loving soul she is. We sincerely wish her only the best life has to offer.
I think it took a tremendous amount of courage to post this topic. I hope she does not mind my telling, but we have exchanged a few e-mails with shareware and think any friends she has there in Utah are very lucky to have her as a friend. What a kind and loving soul she is. We sincerely wish her only the best life has to offer.
Yes I know the feeling. You want to go to a movie or do something but you have no one. I have raise 4 children. Yes the empty feeling is called lonelyness. even in parties you hear eric carman singing "ALL BYMYSEF"
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