sigh......
what can i say.. i just cant do this anymore... I have met a lot of very nice people on here. I cant say i havent enjoyed flirting and chatting with everyone because i have.
At the beginning after i was talked into into the whole swinging idea. I wasnt 100% sure that it was a right thing to do.. and after having a few experiences im sure that i have made a mistake and my self esteem and my heart are torn apart because of it.
I have had experiences that have trashed my self esteem ... and have made me wonder about the person i married. I always wanted someone who thought the sun rose in my smile and set in my eyes.. ( me trying to be poetic..) ( it didnt work huh ?) If you can do this then by all means if it doesnt hurt your relationship and you can maintain something special between the two of you. then by all means go for it... As for me i dont feel special in my spouses eyes anymore...i dont feel special in my own heart anymore..
I have also met some very close friends that hate me because i was in this lifestyle even though they were too... ( there is too much tension and jelousy from some of my friends on here).
I value the friends i have met on here.. I hope you will smile when you remember me on here.. or keep in touch if you have my im address on yahoo...
take care,
and love always,
Butterfly aka Laura
what can i say.. i just cant do this anymore... I have met a lot of very nice people on here. I cant say i havent enjoyed flirting and chatting with everyone because i have.
At the beginning after i was talked into into the whole swinging idea. I wasnt 100% sure that it was a right thing to do.. and after having a few experiences im sure that i have made a mistake and my self esteem and my heart are torn apart because of it.
I have had experiences that have trashed my self esteem ... and have made me wonder about the person i married. I always wanted someone who thought the sun rose in my smile and set in my eyes.. ( me trying to be poetic..) ( it didnt work huh ?) If you can do this then by all means if it doesnt hurt your relationship and you can maintain something special between the two of you. then by all means go for it... As for me i dont feel special in my spouses eyes anymore...i dont feel special in my own heart anymore..
I have also met some very close friends that hate me because i was in this lifestyle even though they were too... ( there is too much tension and jelousy from some of my friends on here).
I value the friends i have met on here.. I hope you will smile when you remember me on here.. or keep in touch if you have my im address on yahoo...
take care,
and love always,
Butterfly aka Laura
The lifestyle isn't meant for everyone and we've seen couples divorce over it. We sincerely hope your relationship survives and your life gets back on the track you want it to be on.
Good luck to you both - and may patience, time and the love you have for each other heal your relationship.
Good luck to you both - and may patience, time and the love you have for each other heal your relationship.
We are always sorry to hear when people, especially good people get hurt. Lifestyles is a thin line to walk and not always right for everyone. Fractures in a marriage can be opened wide here if caution and communication are not exercised constantly with your mate. We wish you the best, hope you get your life back in order and become a happy person again. Bless you...
Cyn and Him
Cyn and Him
I don't know if it would mean much to anyone else but I have come to respect, not regret my decisions in life whatever they were. Keep in mind that good people make decisions based on what they can determine is the best for all concerned at the time. If we could ever know the outcome we would do otherwise and hence no need to make a decision. Don't be so hard on yourself, keep your chin up and be happy with what you have tried to do. Take care, -Rick
A very wise webmaster from another swinger site once said:
"Swinging is an amplifier of emotions, both good and bad"
We are happy that you were able to recognize that it isn't
for you and hopefully you can undo any damage already done.
Best of luck to you both and may your days be filled with love.
Mike & Suz
"Swinging is an amplifier of emotions, both good and bad"
We are happy that you were able to recognize that it isn't
for you and hopefully you can undo any damage already done.
Best of luck to you both and may your days be filled with love.
Mike & Suz
I am always sorry to hear things like this. Being in this lifestyle is something that you definately haveta be okay with. We have seen couples compromise their relationships to be in this lifestyle and it ultimately ruins their marriage. You have to have a strong relationship in order to handle this sorda thing. You shouldnt continue doing this if it is making you feel badly about yourself, and making your marriage struggle. Being in this lifestyle has done many things for our marriage but ruininig it or our self esteem isnt one of them. We have grown to appreciate each other so much more intimately. Our communication has improved and we are more open to discussing what we want sexually. We always make it about each other, and that is the way it should be. I am sorry you feel so badly about yourself, it isnt worth keeping this up if that is what it is doing to your self esteem, and your marriage for that matter. You need to feel secure in with yourself, and your marriage and if you arent secure then this lifestyle is something that you shouldnt continue. May you find happiness and peace with yourself and your partner. You are making the right decision to not continue and that is a step to healing. GOOD LUCK TO YOU!
I'm sorry that things have not worked out for you butterfly. You seem so sad, here's a (
((((big hug)))) good luck, I hope things work out better for you in the future!
((((big hug)))) good luck, I hope things work out better for you in the future!
Sweet lady, both Maria and I are wishing you the best. We hope that someday you can enjoy this lifestyle again atwith all the great friends you have here. Until that time, have a great life and relax. We all still love you here and look forward to when we can all chat again.
Kisses, Matthew&Maria
PS>Keep those sexy eyes dry.
Kisses, Matthew&Maria
PS>Keep those sexy eyes dry.