Last night Greg and I ventured out together into the "straight bar scene" again, it was an interesting evening to say the least. Prior to our first swing party I joked with Greg about it being our "Coming Out Party" LOL. We were both so excited about our first party and did have a good time. However, once there I came to a sudden realization that I had not been in a straight club for over 15 years. In college and after, even now really, I always chose to hang out with girlfriends or my eternal "gay boyfriends" just because I always felt comfortable there. Yes, I was the picture perfect "Fag Hag" in college and that probably led me to places and things that broadened my horizons and introduced me to many more things that I could possibly imagine and I am so thankful for all of that experience. However, it does kind of taint you to the "straight world".
I have always lived my life kinda "balls to the wall" so to speak. Never really feeling self conscious about who I was, about my bi-sexuality or about how I looked. People love me for me and if they don't "Fuck 'Em!". But last night being thrust back into the "dating" scene for the first time in 8 years was quite the eye opening experience. The kind that makes you feel like a complete idiot the next morning...although leaves you still questioning yourself; Hence the need to blog. (The writer comes out in many forms sometimes LOL).
I was trying to explain this to a friend of mine but it didn't come out well and even as I formulate the words you are reading right now it still may not make sense. If it doesn't just "go with it" (oh how those words have gotten me into trouble in the past hehe). But I digress...
Now, you may be asking yourself, "Why would going to a straight bar be so different?". That, dear reader, is what has been perplexing me all day. So, let me try to describe some of the differences I see and have felt.
When I walk into a Girl bar I feel like I am walking into a situation on equal footing. No matter what I look like, no matter what I am wearing, no matter what my size is. Now, many of you might think "Yea right, it
I have always lived my life kinda "balls to the wall" so to speak. Never really feeling self conscious about who I was, about my bi-sexuality or about how I looked. People love me for me and if they don't "Fuck 'Em!". But last night being thrust back into the "dating" scene for the first time in 8 years was quite the eye opening experience. The kind that makes you feel like a complete idiot the next morning...although leaves you still questioning yourself; Hence the need to blog. (The writer comes out in many forms sometimes LOL).
I was trying to explain this to a friend of mine but it didn't come out well and even as I formulate the words you are reading right now it still may not make sense. If it doesn't just "go with it" (oh how those words have gotten me into trouble in the past hehe). But I digress...
Now, you may be asking yourself, "Why would going to a straight bar be so different?". That, dear reader, is what has been perplexing me all day. So, let me try to describe some of the differences I see and have felt.
When I walk into a Girl bar I feel like I am walking into a situation on equal footing. No matter what I look like, no matter what I am wearing, no matter what my size is. Now, many of you might think "Yea right, it
i'm no yoda...i just enjoyed reading and relating to your story. try southern X next time.